Summer of 2010

Finally. It is that time of the year again where updating my blog is as easy as logging onto facebook. I'm not quite sure why it becomes so difficult for me to make this a habit during the school year. Perhaps it's cause everyday in Boston turns out to be a routine, full of events that exhilarate me from the start until the weeks pass by and it all seems the same.

Summer 2010, oh how I welcome you with open arms! This is going to be a different summer. More me, less family. More school, less foolishness. 3 countries with people I love.
And the journey begins...

Current Destination: London
Duration of Stay: approx. 5 and a half weeks
Reason for stay: London summer abroad program

Hometown Glory

T minus 6 hours and 20 minutes, I'll be taking off to the motherland. It's been almost a year since I've been home, so this journey has been long awaited.
Typically I believe it's the journey and not the destination (Cue:Ahmir's version of Don't Stop Believing). However, this is one rare case where the phrase does not apply. It's definitely the destination. The journey getting there has delayed me long enough.
See you soon Manila...

Who do Fugu, you?

I am craving fugu right now. And not just the undoubtedly safe kind of Fugu you can get at select restaurants in the U.S. I am talking about the dangerous kind of fugu. The kind of Fugu you'd go to a back-alley restaurant in Japan for. The kind of fugu, where your life is in the hands of the Japanese chef serving you.

Fugu Adventure: Fugu Sashimi (3/8)
Originally uploaded by Johnia!

Rain rain go away...

come again another day, so I can go out to play....
please?

I don't know how the weather this summer is doing in your part of the woods, but up here in Northern Germany, it is a pain in the arse...

I already have problems walking to work in business casual (tight skirt, button down top and heels). I know as you read this, most of you are probably thinking so what! But it is quite a journey! I have inclined hills to face, cobblestones all around me, stairs, wind, and men raping me with their eyes. It is not fun. Not fun at all. Imagine all that and me with one of those crappy umbrellas that flip around if it's too windy outside. That and rainy, cloudy, windy weather all around me. Horrible.

The only thing that makes it worth while is that I get to work in this beautiful building.

I know. Gorgeous.

2 hours before pain...

In about 2 hours I will be punching and kicking my brains out as I attend my first Muay Thai lesson!

Hiiiyaahhhh!!

I've always been a hare, and it's worked thus far...

So, I have a problem. Not one of those devastating, oh my fucking god what the hell am I going to do with my life kind of problems. It's a petty problem compared to the latter. Managable, yet still a problem because of my inability to manage it!

So what exactly is this problem that I can not stop ranting about?

Well, I guess you can say I'm too much of a dreamer? I think too much about the future when there is so much going on in the present. My mind is always jumping from one thing to the next, causing diversion of my attention to whatever I am working on. Then again, I could be saying and thinking these things because the times I do feel this way are the times when I'm not doing MUCH. Still though. I think too much about the future and do not act enough in the present! I feel that if I want to succeed in accomplishing my goals I need to change this, quick! I need to start making things happen now, rather than thinking about myself eventually getting them done...
I'm the type of person who likes to see the benefits of anything I do after a short period of time. I'm not saying I need to see the total benefits right away, but a few every now and then. It's difficult for me to constantly work hard, and have to wait a year(or any period I consider a long time) or so to see that what I do is worth it.
Perhaps it is this quality of mine that causes me to think about the future so much. Maybe, the times I sit still in the present not really noticing any benefits causes me to think of new plans, which is why I think of the future so much.

Ahhh tis such a problem! Maybe this is why I can't update my blog everyday. I want it to look how I imagine it to look instantly! (And by instant my unrealistic selfish conscience means a day!) I know crazy, but I can't help it. I lack patience in this area! Actually, I'm just spoiled! I'm so used to instant gratification; being able to acheive things at their greatest potential in a short period of time. So used to it that when it takes longer than usual.. it bugs me! Bugs me like an annoying itch on your back that you can't scratch cause it's too hard to reach. Ahhgh!
Time to change...
I need a change of pace...
slow and steady like the tortoise...slow and steady...

-Hare

No more telling yourself..just do...

I guess blogs and I really don't fit. I continually make promises to myself about writing in a blog everyday, but I find it more difficult than I imagined to write about my life in a consistent basis.

It's been close to a year since my last update and lots of things have changed in my life. Upon reading my last post I heard a lot of resentment in my voice about the whole college scenario. Resentment and attempts to make myself feel better. Now months have passed since that last update and I'm finally attending one of the colleges I mentioned- Boston University. My life at BU has been a roller coaster ride to say the least. I've had my ups, my downs, peaks and troughs. There were points where I thought it was the best school for me and moments where I wished to be somewhere else. I came up with a number of reasons for why I disliked it when I did. It varied from it being a spread out city school to it not having the school spirit and community feel that I hoped for. Then there was my uncertainty about my major. I'm currently enrolled in the business school, so I'd graduate with a bachelor degree in business administration. My school is great and there have been a lot of things I've learned since last September, but every now and then I catch myself wondering if this path is really for me. I mean some of what we learn makes me happy, but I feel like what I'm learning now I can learn in the future...I guess I can say that for everything though yet I still feel like I need to learn something more from college. History was something I was extremely interested in before attending BU, but because of the Management schools prestige over it's liberal arts school I thought Business would be best. Currently I'm reconsidering. Part of me wishes I could graduate with a double degree, but I underestimated the difficulty of my school. Actually I take it back, I still don't believe my school is as difficult as a school can be since I'm getting average grades without putting my best effort. So I guess I could excel if I studied everyday and made sure I had everything organized...problem is I can't make anymore of those promises to myself cause I keep failing to keep myself on track. I need to, I really do but part of me also wants to enjoy the whole college experience. The last thing I want to do is be stuck in the library all day...I mean I guess I do need to make certain sacrifices in my life or at least manage everything well. I hope my next semester, my first semester as a sophomore in college will be different from freshman year. I hope that I get a routine going, I hope I get myself organized. I hope..I hope...I need myself to make it come true. I will. I will...I will stop saying I will and just do...
just do...