I guess blogs and I really don't fit. I continually make promises to myself about writing in a blog everyday, but I find it more difficult than I imagined to write about my life in a consistent basis.
It's been close to a year since my last update and lots of things have changed in my life. Upon reading my last post I heard a lot of resentment in my voice about the whole college scenario. Resentment and attempts to make myself feel better. Now months have passed since that last update and I'm finally attending one of the colleges I mentioned- Boston University. My life at BU has been a roller coaster ride to say the least. I've had my ups, my downs, peaks and troughs. There were points where I thought it was the best school for me and moments where I wished to be somewhere else. I came up with a number of reasons for why I disliked it when I did. It varied from it being a spread out city school to it not having the school spirit and community feel that I hoped for. Then there was my uncertainty about my major. I'm currently enrolled in the business school, so I'd graduate with a bachelor degree in business administration. My school is great and there have been a lot of things I've learned since last September, but every now and then I catch myself wondering if this path is really for me. I mean some of what we learn makes me happy, but I feel like what I'm learning now I can learn in the future...I guess I can say that for everything though yet I still feel like I need to learn something more from college. History was something I was extremely interested in before attending BU, but because of the Management schools prestige over it's liberal arts school I thought Business would be best. Currently I'm reconsidering. Part of me wishes I could graduate with a double degree, but I underestimated the difficulty of my school. Actually I take it back, I still don't believe my school is as difficult as a school can be since I'm getting average grades without putting my best effort. So I guess I could excel if I studied everyday and made sure I had everything organized...problem is I can't make anymore of those promises to myself cause I keep failing to keep myself on track. I need to, I really do but part of me also wants to enjoy the whole college experience. The last thing I want to do is be stuck in the library all day...I mean I guess I do need to make certain sacrifices in my life or at least manage everything well. I hope my next semester, my first semester as a sophomore in college will be different from freshman year. I hope that I get a routine going, I hope I get myself organized. I hope..I hope...I need myself to make it come true. I will. I will...I will stop saying I will and just do...
just do...
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